could not and did not want to subdue. For the first
time in his life he knew what physical excitement
meant.

J.B. guaranteed Franco’s visit to America as a B
tourist, helped him obtain a visa and passport.

They flew on separate planes and on different
days, giving J.B. a chance to reserve a room for

him in an out of the way motel where he might visit

undetected.

Hollywood was not Rome where he might spend
his free hours alone with Franco. Here, they had to
be divided. ]J.B. was obliged to create excuses for
staying away from the house in the evenings. On the
nights he remained with his family, he worried about
Franco’s fidelity.

He imagined him at the beach picking up a
younger man. At the movies sitting close to some
stranger beside him. He saw him laughing and en-
chanting people at gay bars.

J.B. became increasingly irritable and nervous.
No one in his family could understand why. His
~ wife would not let herself become suspicious. There
had never been any reason to doubt his love for her.
She blamed the high pressure under which he’d been
working and urged the children not to notice his odd
behavior. | '