. 120 ~ “That’s the most you can count on in this life. ~ Anything longer and you’re fooling yourself. Maybe I was lucky feeling the way I did. Maybe I was lucky being a Negro. I took the good things out of gay life. I missed the trouble, the heartbreaks, the falling in and out of love. All that crap. Except it’s not crap. It’s deadly serious at the time. “Nope, I don't think I would have made it if I was a white queen.”