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the real thing then.

“So I made up with him. After that, meeting him
in the afternoons got to be pretty regular. Sometimes
I'd feel lousy afterward, but the more we did it, the
more I got used to it.

“When he left he gave me his address and told me
to look him up in New York.

“A month later I was there. Boy, what a sucker! I
thought I was going to be an actor. The guy turned
out to be living with some other fellow. He saw me
only once and then, that was in a little bar. His
boy friend was jealous of him. He couldn’t afford to
have me around.

“I was out of dough. I couldn’ go back home. I
was too ashamed. I told my family I was going to
be an actor.

“I started hanging around 7he Street because it
was cheap. One thing led to another. It was easy. I
“saw the other buys picking up men and before long
I was doing the same thing myself. That was three
years ago. I didn’t look this way then. I wasn’t on
the booze. Hadn’t started to lose my hair.

“I once got $50 a night from one trick. Another
put me up in his Park Avenue apartment for three
weeks, took me to the theatre, to Long Island for the
weekend. I thought I had it made until he got rest-